THIS MESS THAT YOU LOVE

For a heart known to commotion
And a head known to lies
Your beautiful devotion
…and ties
Are like heaven made for a demon
And I’m so learning many a lesson
To self destruct the horror into Cupid’s arrow
…to break through the hollow tunnel of my past’s sorrow

II
So when I breakdown at your good intentions
Please hold onto me with your cool interventions
When I snap at your touching actions
Just lock me with one of your many love mentions
If your good manners turn me into a runner
Do hold onto my unfitting radar
For I am a mess who has long worn duress
After giving my heart’s door an unfitting access
…to few jokers as their area of recess
You are the good I’m unused to
But the peace I love to climb to

III
If your love brightens to blind me
Do cover me with a shade which will help me to see
If your care frightens me
Please tease out the baby in me
For I have been on my own for so long
And feel the need to always be strong
If your tenderness scares me
Be like the soft angelic guitarist and play on my soft strings
So I can fit into your beautiful wings
You’re the best I never thought I’d have
But the blessing I always needed as my half

IV
And if days unwrap years to show me unchanged
Do leave me hard on my grounds if I will force your head to be deranged
For above my crimes and many failings
Converting an angel into an evil spirit, is a burden I won’t build to be
But I will make this promise to be better than the now me
To fit into your bliss even through the hisses
…of a past’s hurtful kisses
To give you as much as you give me
For you are and always will remain my BKN
Amoafowaa Sefa Cecilia © June 28, 2021