I DON’T WANT TO LOVE YOU (ADULT POETRY)

I don’t want to love you

But adrenaline has conquered

The fighting forces of control

Like a match taking possession of petrol

And has left me helpless

 

II

I don’t want to love you

But I am like the boiled cassava

In between your mortar and ready pestle

Even an escape, spells my doom

Worse, I’ll end up in the mouth of the dog

 

III

I don’t want to love you

But I am a puppet

I am a toy on your strings

Your air blows me here or there;

Your here or there

 

IV

I don’t want to love you

But there is doom with chasing shadows

And sounds like “rao rao rao”

When you’re gone

Because the light leaves with you

 

V

I don’t want to love you

But I am a slave tied in your Elimina castle

Set in your colonial time

And will be sent off on your ship

Unless my breath leaves me,

Then you’ll dash me to a carnivorous shark

 

VI

I don’t want to love you!

I so don’t want to love you!

Everything you are is my punishment

Everything you’re not is my punishment

Your existence is woe

And your non-existence is my unimaginable impossibility

Heads are twirling

Eyes are rolling

But I am feeling

I don’t want to love you, but, but, but,

Words have failed me

Amoafowaa Sefa Cecilia © 2015