THESE HORRID SELVES OF ME

Sometimes I am my own foe
I see fire, I see ice, and I see a combination
But I choose a mono with my toe
My eyes roaming somewhere in vague inspiration
Burning or drowning my aspiration

2.
Sometimes I am my own downfall
In a tricky climb, my thoughts roam on grounds
Just at a sound of a bird, I fall
Breaking my back and enchanting my hounds

3.
Sometimes I am my own mess
I pile on problems into duress
And play my strength like chess
Until my heart threatens to stop in stress

4.
Sometimes I am my own anger
In a realm where selves act first
I turn food for those in hunger
Killing my poor spirit with a living thirst

5.
Sometimes I am my own folly
I act weird and call on eyes
Fitting not anywhere but in my own boring jolly
While basking in self contentment lies

6.
Sometimes I am my own flaws
I think so high of me
That I see not complacency claws
Forcing failures on me

7.
Sometimes I just don’t listen
Moving ahead of directions like a bull
Only to be stuck smitten
To end up like a gigantic fool

8.
Sometimes I am my own tears
I know I can burn but I choose suns like fire
I know of my fears
But I still push me into situations dire

9.
Sometimes I am my own killer
I know I am no fish but I call for a swim
Only for water to hit me fuller
To call death to my soul dim

10.
Sometimes I am my own worse enemy
I chose to run when ladders call my steps
Destroying my destiny
And running into monstrous reps

R.
But I’m going to school all these and my best selves
…into a harmonious self
Who loves her flaws and tames her claws
In a Resolution deserving of a being
…traveling through life into an unknowable realm
Amoafowaa Sefa Cecilia © May 6, 2021