I stand at the crossroads of
…a known path
…and an unknown path
Looking left
Looking right
Confusion playing my mind like an annoying xylophonist

The known road lies with its congratulatory beckoning
And an ego whose mouth is widely open
…to swallow whole my pride
I see the line where my knees will turn feet
And my will will taste defeat
…what do I do?

The unknown path has dogs of criticisms on leash
Waiting to bark me into a deaf
With ancestral curses promising duress
But an open heart with smiling deeds and freedom
…call in a welcome
Even I hate the colour which will call for dilution
…for bodies unmade
…what do I do?

I can’t relive a story
…that bought me worry
…and left me sorry
I can’t retake a road
…which sucked my strength
…and broke my dignity
I can’t retry a line
…which consumed my hopes
…and grazed my knees
I can’t continue on a path I know
Knowing many monsters await to me feed on
…on cultural tickets
…what do I do?

I want to put the clothes you yearned for
…on your awaiting generation
I want to so toe the line of no contamination
I want to live to honour our ancestral family till we meet
But you and your kind taught ill your pathmakers
Building cruelty where empathy should have been
Poorly defining responsibility to mean money dishing and horror treatment
…what do I do?

I am now here
…here where my pride pairs my dignity
And can fit not into an ill defined submission box
I am here
…here where my knees are sore from this known path journey
I am here
…here with experiences that still recreate nightmares
…for my short naps
I am here
…knowing the path boldy marked right
…in your moral dictionary
…a comfort calls from the unknown
A comfort with its peace of mind
With a factual stamp of humanity
…what do I do?
Please tell me what to do
For I am too weary to thread your threaded
Knowing it’ll just be a journey of return
A return that will cost me something more
…way more than my soul
Amoafowaa Sefa Cecilia © October 22, 2019

By amoafowaa

Just a simple Ghanaian trying to find the best in our society. I may be fun, I may be interesting, I may be funny, I may even be foolish or intelligent, but it is all based on the mood in which you find yourself. I believe our minds make us who we are. Know that, pain, no matter its 'unbearability', is transient. Unburden or delight yourself for a while in my writings please. And all corrections, advice and opinions are welcome. Know that you are the king, queen or royal on this blog. :)

2 replies on “Decision PATHWAYS”

that voice you hear…that doesn’t make a sound….is that you…or spoken through you…no right this time…so make up your mind…what’s left…just how much you believe in yourself…no matter which way you choose…there is no win or lose…either way, to yourself be true…for at each end, is a better you…RDR…peace

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