Decision PATHWAYS

I stand at the crossroads of
…a known path
…and an unknown path
Looking left
Looking right
Confusion playing my mind like an annoying xylophonist

II
The known road lies with its congratulatory beckoning
And an ego whose mouth is widely open
…to swallow whole my pride
I see the line where my knees will turn feet
And my will will taste defeat
Adwoa-Okua
…what do I do?

III
The unknown path has dogs of criticisms on leash
Waiting to bark me into a deaf
With ancestral curses promising duress
But an open heart with smiling deeds and freedom
…call in a welcome
Even I hate the colour which will call for dilution
…for bodies unmade
Adwoa-Okua
…what do I do?

IV
I can’t relive a story
…that bought me worry
…and left me sorry
I can’t retake a road
…which sucked my strength
…and broke my dignity
I can’t retry a line
…which consumed my hopes
…and grazed my knees
I can’t continue on a path I know
Knowing many monsters await to me feed on
…on cultural tickets
Adwo-Okua
…what do I do?

V
I want to put the clothes you yearned for
…on your awaiting generation
I want to so toe the line of no contamination
I want to live to honour our ancestral family till we meet
But you and your kind taught ill your pathmakers
Building cruelty where empathy should have been
Poorly defining responsibility to mean money dishing and horror treatment
Adwoa-okua
…what do I do?

VI
I am now here
…here where my pride pairs my dignity
And can fit not into an ill defined submission box
I am here
…here where my knees are sore from this known path journey
I am here
…here with experiences that still recreate nightmares
…for my short naps
I am here
…knowing the path boldy marked right
…in your moral dictionary
Still,
…a comfort calls from the unknown
A comfort with its peace of mind
With a factual stamp of humanity
Adwoa-Okua
…what do I do?
Please tell me what to do
For I am too weary to thread your threaded
Knowing it’ll just be a journey of return
A return that will cost me something more
…way more than my soul
Amoafowaa Sefa Cecilia © October 22, 2019